I realize that most of these things I say I miss about law school are in reality things I miss about the graduate student's life: flexibility, freedom, using my own laptop to do work. That sort of thing. Don't get me wrong - I love, love, LOVE my nights and my weekends. The freedom of my Sundays is almost overwhelming. I'm not going to say I WANT work on these Sundays but I will say I am still trying to figure out how to deal with such glorious unscheduled chunks of free time. Reading things can no longer be called "work" - it's purely for pleasure. This is great... just a little unnerving. And this just makes me realize what a law student [read: type-A nerd] I truly became in those 3 years. It's gonna take some work to undo the damage, but I am committed to the project. Until then, I thought it would be a good exercise to compile a list of things I miss about my former life:
- The internet. Good lord, how I miss the internet. It's way less acceptable to procrastinate at my job, on the taxpayer's dime, than on my own time when being distracted by feministing and dcist and sociological images just meant I would need to work a little later into the evening. I miss blogs and linking through continuously until I really was not sure how I got there, but I was so happy I had made it to say, this. Sure, I still have the weekend to catch up, but it's not the same. I feel like I was in a pretty serious relationship and one of us now works in a different city and we can only spend time together on the weekends. It's been rough. I'm still committed, but I just hope he doesn't take my lack of attention personally....
- Running in the afternoons. The crisp fall air. The leaves turning color. Seeing the faces of other runners. My morning runs which are often in the dark are just not the same. I still love them, but I don't get to savor them as much as I got to savor my late-afternoon, pre-dinner runs. This is only going to get worse as it gets colder too and 6am briskness becomes 6am frigidness.
- Food Shopping at 8am... on a Monday. There is nothing in the world like a fully-stocked, almost empty Trader Joe's. Nothing.
- Coffee and Breakfast at Home. I miss leisurely mornings where I would wake up early, make coffee, and work from home for a couple of hours before heading to school. Drinking out of an actual mug; having time for some cereal. I still have coffee and oatmeal at work, but there is something about enjoying it in the comfort of home that made mornings lovely.
I am sure I will think of more things. I will also say that I do miss the sense of community at law school and the constant and varied intellectual pursuits in which I could surround myself. But at least that I can try to replicate in other ways now. Figuring out a way to sneak out of work at 4pm for a run... probably not going to happen.